
Welcome reader!
In March this year I tried picking up publishing this diary – but failed…..
Yet, the post below (day 20) was all but finished, so I left it that way.
The only thing I have to add, is that I had to start all over again….
So Chapter 1 has got its umpteenth revision.
Chapter 1: A letter from a stranger | “1994”: fanfic inspired erotica episode 1
This extra tiny intro has the imaginary title:
“Starting all over again. Again.”
Because that’s what I’ll be doing.
Expect a chapter by chapter improvements – posting to Twitter and Facebook.
Enjoy!
~Lauren
13 June 2025
post below written on 13 April 2025
“Whatever you’re meant to do, do it now. The conditions are always impossible.”
– Doris Lessing.
Good news first! I have an amazing idea to improve this series, which I picked up just last week.
Yes, just last week, and after 14 months of not touching this blog!
It’s that newness which is the reason I am even here, because I could not stop this wanna-be weekly series after publishing just one new episode.
Publishing this book is turning out to be harder than (almost) all the others, and for reasons I am sure I can connect the dots on looking back.
But that are for now largely clouded in mystery.
I really don’t know why publishing this reinvented-timeline diary is so hard.
But it could probably explain why I always fell off the wagon, in my attempts to publish it the past couple of years.
But if I had stopped today?
I would have been able to tell you why.
Although the circumstances itself do not lend themselves to be shared, I can tell you I slept only for 90 minutes or so, and if I would go to bed now I would not be able to sleep either.
My nervous system is completely out of whack, and I am in a constant state of worry.
And over something which anybody less sensitive would have been able to put aside, until it had ran its course and things were clearer.
So I am sleep deprived and I am energetically messed up.
However!
With the Doris Lessing quote in mind, I am not going to let that stop me today.
So that was actually the bad news, that I’m in poor shape and may start paragraphs (such as saying I start with the good news) and then end up writing something else entirely (such as sharing the bad news first).
Anyway the good news is that I did come up with a great format for these posts, so you don’t have to click back to previous episodes to read the whole book (the finished, edited, chapters).
This means I will first mention the new chapter or chapters, but always include the links to the full story as well.
Last week I did share all chapters we had so far, and it was intended to be a one-off, but I’ve decided to always include all chapters.
And I say that with even more adrenaline and anxiety than I already had, because this is by far my most intimate work.
But I figure presenting my work, and allowing it to be read, is the least I owe both the work, and you.
You can find all previously edited chapters below.
Follow me on Facebook and Twitter to read next Publishing Journal, with a newly revised chapter.
To be continued!
~Lauren/LS Harteveld
An unexamined life is not worth living
* An About section, on this diary project, has been added to the bottom of this post.
book 1 Letter from a Stranger
Chapter 1 (revised twice) (NSFW): A letter from a stranger | “1994”: fanfic inspired erotica episode 1
Chapter 2: Mutuals | “1994”: fanfic inspired erotica episode 2
Chapter 3: Think about you | “1994”: fanfic inspired story episode 3
Chapter 4: Out ta get me | “1994”: fanfic inspired story episode 4
Chapter 5: Rocket Queen | “1994”: fanfic inspired story episode 5
Chapter 6: Anything goes, Unfinished book on Consent Play | “1994” episode 6
Chapter 7: Welcome to the jungle | “1994” series
Chapter 8: A Warm Safe Place | “1995” series
Chapter 9: Sexual Innuendo | “1995” series
Chapter 10: I remember when we met | “1995” series
(with new 2024 art work/ picture)
Chapter 11: Take that one to heart | “1994” series
(with new 2024 art work/ picture)
Chapter 12: ‘Cause all these dreams are swept aside | 1995 series
Chapter 13: The updated final chapter of the first volume of my retro diary:
When Your Innocence Dies | 1995 series { final chapter Volume 1, 1994-1995 }
book 2 Dear Nikki
prelude: { previously unpublished draft } Shed a tear ’cause I’m missin’ you | 1995 Series
Chapter 1: A Year of Writing | 1995-1996 diary
Chapter 2: When your fears subside and shadows still remain | 1995-1996 diary
since 2018 my official blog is: https://laurenharteveld.com/
This is also where I write my Lauren 1999 diaries.
Plus letters to my coach Sara.
publishing journal is a stand-alone project, written on my oldest blog, which has software I do not master (explaining the light grey or blue color of the links; I cannot (yet?) change this);
And it also does not have a “Subscribe” button, nor would I know how to install one.
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This blogpost was about the publishing process of
A letter from a stranger
diary 1994 – 1996
including book 2, Dear Nikki
There are currently (I may have missed a chapter, which will be added as we go)
13 chapters in book one “A Letter To A Stranger”, 1994-1995,
and 22 chapters in book 2 “Dear Nikki”.
These first two Volumes will be published in one bind.
All my other diaries and erotica are readily available in my BOOK SHOP
* ABOUT THE DIARY 1994-1996
In summer 2019, I started keeping a fictionalized diary, as a 25 year old younger version of me. Events that happened in 2019 found their way into the diary, translated to their late 20th century reality.
And I also absolutely, intended to LIVE, like it was 1994!
But this is a hard thing to do, I feel I am still (2023) learning there…. but that is my endgame;
To LIVE like it’s the turn of the century.
It was/is an amazing project, and to this day I consider the diary entries it produced on my main blog, my best and certainly my most interesting work, because it combines performance art (living in the 20th century) with diary writing, leaving ample room for fiction.
In 2021, I harvested the diary posts I had so far, with the intention of creating a published diary out of it. Two actually, volume 1 and 2, but I decided to put them in one bind.
But I abandoned the project in spring 2022, losing complete touch with the project….
December 2023, I have picked up publishing this amazing work, of vintage erotica.