Today, 12th of February 2024, which would translate to 12th February 1999 for my Vintage Retro Diaries*;
I found this post in my drafts.
It came with an introduction, excusing myself if I ever accidentally hit publish:
I stopped writing online, but still make my documents here.
So if I ever accidentally hit publish, this post might be removed.
Over the past few months, I have been updating retro-time travel diary posts, where I live the life of my younger self, a process you can follow through this blog you’re currently reading, which is posted to Facebook and Twitter.
And I was aware that there could be unpublished posts, which should not just be published after all, but should also be included in my manuscript;
The to-be-printed version of the diary 1994-1995 and 1995-1996
In December 2023, when I started this process, I still dutifully opened every post “in between” my retro diary entries, just to make sure I did not miss a diary chapter.
But they were never missed diary sections, and yet I still always felt compelled to update and improve on these “current day” posts of 2019, and it wasn’t until long before I gave up checking the in-between posts for lost gems.
I would stick with reviewing the official, labeled-as-such, diary posts, as I had identified and extracted them in 2021, and all others would simply be lost.
A wise decision, because as soon as 2020 hit, the number of posts multiplied, the array of different series got messier, I start-stopped projects and buried them in layers of timelines and identities.
2020 was when my work assumed a petticoat like shape;
Layer upon layer upon layer.
Or story within story within story, like a Russian Matryoshka Doll.
In the process of extracting whole series from that blog (my main blog since 2018), the pandemic years are going to represent the biggest challenge for sure.
They’re going to be what is known in the marathon world as the last 10K, which is to say;
Curating 2020 and 2021 are a race of its own.
So I was happily surprised when scrolling through half a year of blogposts when I did not write for my retro diary (I would pick it up in August 2020/1995) I noticed a draft and clicked it;
It was indeed, an unpublished diary entry.
And boy does it come, on the most inconvenient day!
I already copy-edited three (!) chapters of the diary in the manuscript. They are the first three of “Volume 2, 1995-1996: Dear Nikki”, and the idea that I now had to edit the blogposts to match the improved manuscript;
Share these three here;
And write one of these little publishing posts for them;
The topics of these three posts were so meaty and stirring so many emotions, the last thing I felt like writing was a publishing post that was “little” and “in service of”!
And it was on that day, I encountered an entire new chapter.
Luckily, it makes a great preface to Volume 2, where it will become the unnumbered opening chapter to this second volume.
And I will be sharing with you the next three chapters later this week.
Gives me a little bit more time as well, to come to grips with it.
Maybe it is for the better this way.
An unexamined life is not worth living
* An About section, on this diary project, has been added to the bottom of this post.
since 2018 my official blog is: https://laurenharteveld.com/
This is also where I write my Lauren 1998 diaries.
Plus letters to my coach Sara.
publishing journal is a stand-alone project, written on my oldest blog, which has software I do not master (explaining the light grey or blue color of the links; I cannot (yet?) change this);
And it also does not have a “Subscribe” button, nor would I know how to install one.
This blogpost was about the publishing process of
A letter from a stranger
diary 1994 – 1996
including book 2, Dear Nikki
There are currently (I may have missed a chapter, which will be added as we go)
13 chapters in book one “A Letter To A Stranger”, 1994-1995,
and 22 chapters in book 2 “Dear Nikki”.
These first two Volumes will be published in one bind, and are expected to be for sale March 2024.
The books I’ll be publishing next are:
1.Reboot – a hero’s journey. Diary 2017-2019
2.I M NOT CHANGING MY FUCKING SHOW
* ABOUT THE DIARY 1994-1996
In summer 2019, I started keeping a fictionalized diary, as a 25 year old younger version of me. Events that happened in 2019 found their way into the diary, translated to their late 20th century reality.
And I also absolutely, intended to LIVE, like it was 1994!
But this is a hard thing to do, I feel I am still (2023) learning there…. but that is my endgame;
To LIVE like it’s the turn of the century.
It was/is an amazing project, and to this day I consider the diary entries it produced on my main blog, my best and certainly my most interesting work, because it combines performance art (living in the 20th century) with diary writing, leaving ample room for fiction.
In 2021, I harvested the diary posts I had so far, with the intention of creating a published diary out of it. Two actually, volume 1 and 2, but I decided to put them in one bind.
But I abandoned the project in spring 2022, losing complete touch with the project….
December 2023, I have picked up publishing this amazing work, of vintage erotica.