One day “Publishing Sundays” will be ingrained into my schedule!
At least, that’s what I hope.
Because it is the only way in which my body of work under the name of LS Harteveld, from which I have never-printed-on-paper blogposts dating as far back as 2010/ 2009 even perhaps, would find their way to a pdf file and printed paper.
Something I really want, in particular now when after 15 years I’ve all but stopped writing for this account. I only write one monthly letter to my coach Sara, on my regular blog https://laurenharteveld.com/, but that’s it, really.
Probably because I create about two-three pieces of longform content under my real name every week.
So the first creative hunger has been effectively stilled.
But the other reason I barely write for LS Harteveld anymore is because since 2007 I was on an Anais Nin-inspired path of diary writing and sexual exploration, and that path has slowly but steadily come to a halt.
The things I write under my real name are not things I need to find my way out of.
In 2025, I am no longer drowning in emotions, and writing is, although still an insatiable urge, no longer a matter of life and death.
So I want to use this calm phase for LS Harteveld to publish the whole body of work she created, because first of all;
I’m very curious what it all is!
All I remember, all that I know, is that it is a lot.
I’ve been very prolific, until 2018 on this website, and from December 2018 and up on the other website https://laurenharteveld.com/
So I know the number of books I can compose from that is absolutely mindboggling. In particular because I always wrote in series. Now, they did always end by way of dying out. I cannot recall ever writing a real ending, with the exception of this fictionalized 90s diary.
This diary, or diaries because there are two I publish in tandem, volume 1 Letter from a Stranger and volume 2 Dear Nikki, both have endings.
But all my other series, came without.
But, they did come in the shape of a series usually.
So it’s not that I have to categorize 15 years of random blogposts;
My estimate is about 80-90% will have a home.
It will be clear where, and then also to which book, these blogposts belong.
So today I am here for THE FIRST PUBLISHING SUNDAY-
of what will hopefully become a lifetime practice.
It means that every Sunday I will work on publishing the book at hand, and share with you what happened.
And I am back here after a 14 month hiatus, which I could explain, but the short version is my publishing seems to go hand in hand with heavy storms in my personal life.
I started this Publishing Journal, as a blog companion to motivate myself to finally pick up publishing the 90s diary (a process that had stop started often, but the manuscript was already done October 2022 when I started here).
And regardless of the storms, I always managed to stick to these publishing activities.
Only to the drop it months afterwards.
So where I kept it together, and pursued in the heat of the moment, I always gave up later down the road, when I just couldn’t muster the courage to continue.
I m not an endurance creative, I am a sprinter.
And ultimately long after the storm had passed, it still managed to bite me in the ass.
So I could tell you why I fell through 14 months ago, but the problem is not circumstantial. It is chronic.
But there is another reason I want to publish, aside from being curious about my own 15 year long body of work. And that is because I want to sustain my work.
And this is where my work under my real name differs from LS Harteveld;
I feel this is the real deal.
This is my legacy of documenting my life, a life. of a woman at the beginning of the 21st century.
My articles about other topics, so non-diary or non-sexual, nor femme fatale or mistress inspired writings?
I don’t really care for those, really. Just like I don’t really care for the work under my own name. I feel that is all more something you (meaning I) write because you’re part of society. Or connected to a mutual interest, or something like that.
But it’s not timeless.
So when I declare these will be Publishing Sundays, I have an understanding to prioritize the LS Harteveld work that is deeply personal.
And right now, and since 2022, this means the retro 90s diary.
So I was so afraid I would not be able to find the manuscript, or the collages I created in 2020 I believe, for the cover.
I didn’t even know if I would be able to get back into this website to create a blog.
But that all went okay, and what I did is I made an overview of all blogpost I seem to have covered previously.
So you can find what I believed to be the edited-thus-far blogposts, as I left it February 2024.
I never intended to have it all lined up like this, and the series is almost impossible to find or to read, on that blog!
Which is no accident; I used to have an overview page, but was more comfortable with no one being able to read it.
So I removed it.
But it was also because times have changed. The privacy of having an alterego is not what it was 15 years ago.
If my diary-worthy sex and love life ever picks up again, I really wouldn’t be able to tell you if I’d ever write erotica online ever again.
The alternative would be, to write straight to paper, and thereby straight to print.
So I would never need to go through the process of collecting everything again, nor have this work online.
After all neither did Anais Nin ;)
But for now, I congratulate you for making it all the way to the bottom of this blogpost!
And welcome you to an overview, I never intended to make.
The chapters of the 90s diary “Letter from a Stranger”, and book 2 “Dear Nikki”
Follow me on Facebook and Twitter to read next Sunday’s Publishing Journal, with a newly revised chapter.
To be continued!
~Lauren/LS Harteveld
An unexamined life is not worth living
* An About section, on this diary project, has been added to the bottom of this post.
book 1 Letter from a Stranger
Chapter 1: A letter from a stranger | “1994”: fanfic inspired erotica episode 1
Chapter 2: Mutuals | “1994”: fanfic inspired erotica episode 2
Chapter 3: Think about you | “1994”: fanfic inspired story episode 3
Chapter 4: Out ta get me | “1994”: fanfic inspired story episode 4
Chapter 5: Rocket Queen | “1994”: fanfic inspired story episode 5
Chapter 6: Anything goes, Unfinished book on Consent Play | “1994” episode 6
Chapter 7: Welcome to the jungle | “1994” series
Chapter 8: A Warm Safe Place | “1995” series
Chapter 9: Sexual Innuendo | “1995” series
Chapter 10: I remember when we met | “1995” series
(with new 2024 art work/ picture)
Chapter 11: Take that one to heart | “1994” series
(with new 2024 art work/ picture)
Chapter 12: ‘Cause all these dreams are swept aside | 1995 series
Chapter 13: The updated final chapter of the first volume of my retro diary:
When Your Innocence Dies | 1995 series { final chapter Volume 1, 1994-1995 }
book 2 Dear Nikki
prelude: { previously unpublished draft } Shed a tear ’cause I’m missin’ you | 1995 Series
Chapter 1: A Year of Writing | 1995-1996 diary
Chapter 2: When your fears subside and shadows still remain | 1995-1996 diary
since 2018 my official blog is: https://laurenharteveld.com/
This is also where I write my Lauren 1999 diaries.
Plus letters to my coach Sara.
publishing journal is a stand-alone project, written on my oldest blog, which has software I do not master (explaining the light grey or blue color of the links; I cannot (yet?) change this);
And it also does not have a “Subscribe” button, nor would I know how to install one.
But you can follow publishing journal on
Facebook
and
Twitter
This blogpost was about the publishing process of
A letter from a stranger
diary 1994 – 1996
including book 2, Dear Nikki
There are currently (I may have missed a chapter, which will be added as we go)
13 chapters in book one “A Letter To A Stranger”, 1994-1995,
and 22 chapters in book 2 “Dear Nikki”.
These first two Volumes will be published in one bind.
All my other diaries and erotica are readily available in my BOOK SHOP
* ABOUT THE DIARY 1994-1996
In summer 2019, I started keeping a fictionalized diary, as a 25 year old younger version of me. Events that happened in 2019 found their way into the diary, translated to their late 20th century reality.
And I also absolutely, intended to LIVE, like it was 1994!
But this is a hard thing to do, I feel I am still (2023) learning there…. but that is my endgame;
To LIVE like it’s the turn of the century.
It was/is an amazing project, and to this day I consider the diary entries it produced on my main blog, my best and certainly my most interesting work, because it combines performance art (living in the 20th century) with diary writing, leaving ample room for fiction.
In 2021, I harvested the diary posts I had so far, with the intention of creating a published diary out of it. Two actually, volume 1 and 2, but I decided to put them in one bind.
But I abandoned the project in spring 2022, losing complete touch with the project….
December 2023, I have picked up publishing this amazing work, of vintage erotica.