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Still here. Still playing! | publishing journal day 9

Straight to the chapter:

Welcome to the jungle | “1994” series

Contrary to what I expected, it is not the work of reviewing these diary entries, written in 2019 as a 1994 diary, that is “a lot of work”, confronting or requiring constant prioritizing.
In fact:
The work is almost doing itself.

From day one of starting this publishing project, and keeping a publishing journal, a habit which I intend to keep for all the books that come after this one;
This project seems to have been blessed.

So even rereading the posts about my 2019 breakup, and just in general, reading about those last auspicious months before the pandemic, is not something that particularly challenges me.

What is, are the blogposts that are in between, that do not belong to this project.

The first two days, I included them on my way. I would see if they accidentally belonged to this project, as in that they were diary entries from Lauren.
But mostly I would update the text, adding paragraphs and spacing, and replaced the fully outdated footer that contained a YouTube channel took down, books I never intend to publish, and a series under which banner I no longer write.

But soon I found out this would become the bottleneck of this project, if I kept doing that.
That if I want to finish publishing this diary early February (having updated all chapters before the end of January) I cannot be in any way emotionally invested in all the non-diary chapters that were also written between December 2019 and Fall 2021.
I have to let go, and let those blogposts wait for their turn to be published into a book.

But the glimpses I saw, illustrated that this project, of living as if it is 25 years ago and writing the diary accordingly, has been chosen by me repeatedly, with the resolution to go all in, do it in a more serious way, block out the current day digital reality, and so on.

With very little result, I must say. Because otherwise why would you have to choose and promise yourself you really are going to do this, over and over again?
It is tempting to see in it, a failure.
A failed project, that does not live up to its promising start, or that hampers going from idea to execution.

But I don’t see it that way, and rereading today’s chapter I understand why I don’t mind that over the entire time period from summer 2019 to December 2023, where we are now, I constantly had to remind myself to live in the past, and get it right this time.

Because, as today’s updated diary entry, where Lauren gets sidelined by two men
Welcome to the jungle | “1994” series
yet does not feel particularly disheartened by it, illustrates that the only thing that ever matters, is that you stay on the field, and stay in the game.

And I am.

~Lauren/LS Harteveld
An unexamined life is not worth living

* An About section, on this diary project, has been added to the bottom of this post.

since 2018 my official blog is: https://laurenharteveld.com/
This is also where I write my Lauren 1998 diaries.
Plus letters to my coach Sara.

publishing journal is a stand-alone project, written on my oldest blog, which has software I do not master (explaining the light grey or blue color of the links; I cannot (yet?) change this);
And it also does not have a “Subscribe” button, nor would I know how to install one.

But you can follow publishing journal on
Facebook
and
Twitter

This blogpost was about the publishing process of

A letter from a stranger  
diary 1994 – 1996
including book 2, Dear Nikki

There are currently (I may have missed a chapter, which will be added as we go)
13 chapters in book one “A Letter To A Stranger”, 1994-1995,
and 22 chapters in book 2 “Dear Nikki”.
So with my resolution of giving this project one hour a day, I should be able to share the entire 1994-1996 diary* with you before the end of January 2024.

And it is expected to be for sale March 2024.

The books I’ll be publishing next are:
1.Reboot – a hero’s journey. Diary 2017-2019
2.I M NOT CHANGING MY FUCKING SHOW

All my other diaries and erotica are readily available in my BOOK SHOP

* ABOUT THE DIARY 1994-1996

In summer 2019, I started keeping a fictionalized diary, as a 25 year old younger version of me. Events that happened in 2019 found their way into the diary, translated to their late 20th century reality.
And I also absolutely, intended to LIVE, like it was 1994!
But this is a hard thing to do, I feel I am still (2023) learning there…. but that is my endgame;
To LIVE like it’s the turn of the century.

It was/is an amazing project, and to this day I consider the diary entries it produced on my main blog, my best and certainly my most interesting work, because it combines performance art (living in the 20th century) with diary writing, leaving ample room for fiction.

In 2021, I harvested the diary posts I had so far, with the intention of creating a published diary out of it. Two actually, volume 1 and 2, but I decided to put them in one bind.
But I abandoned the project in spring 2022, losing complete touch with the project….

December 2023, I have picked up publishing this amazing work, of vintage erotica.

The good, the triggering, and the not changing a thing here| publishing journal day 8

The next chapter in the retro 1994 diary*

Anything goes, Unfinished book on Consent Play | “1994” episode 6

is the handwritten manuscript of Lauren 1994’s book on consent play.
Every night she wrote in a spiral notebook, until she realized this was turning into a book she didn’t want to write.
But not for the reasons I found triggering today, rereading it!

The first time she mentions having felt so bad she had suicidal thoughts, I immediately thought:
“Oh we’ll take that out, no need triggering people (including myself)”

2018 had been the first year of my then 46 year old life I started having thoughts like this, which were apparently still there in 2019 which I translated into the 1994 diary* project.

And although I took them as a serious sign that something was wrong
– something that would have played out far less dramatic if I had had cats, which was not possible in 2018 – I was also old enough and had always been healthy enough, to understand my life was in all probability not in danger.
However, I had actually forgotten these thoughts were still prevalent in 2019, in a watered-down or catted-down version where they did not have a chance to bottom out completely.
Forgotten, until I read the diary.

“Oh, we’ll get that out”, initial thought.

I remember that at the time of writing it (2019) I worried a lot more about the sexual triggering concepts discussed, and not about the mental health aspect of it.
But rereading it, it was the first thing that stood out.

Fortunately for me, because I did realize it would be OUT of integrity to take this part out of the diary, even if I knew the topic would not return at a later date –
it was impossible to take the triggering topic of the thoughts of the protagonist out of this chapter, without cutting too deep.
Without taking out the heart, of this story.

So it stayed in.

Lauren 1994 concluded that the sexual consent play she had had with Bear throughout their 5 year sexual arrangement, which was on the cusp of breaking up when she starting writing down all elements she thought were relevant to keep and to preserve, untangling and safe-keeping her sexual legacy from their affair;
That the consent play had been part of a much bigger concept.

That the only reason it could exist was because they had such a loose arrangement, formally speaking, that they played a consent game all the time.
Not just between the sheets.

It was a relationship style they had invented, that had facilitated the groundbreaking sex for years.
It was not, a sexual preference you could write juicy books about.

Lauren quit writing her manuscript on consent play, and decided to go all in on becoming a completely renewed, amazing version of herself.

She was still unsure if she would be able to pull that off if it would have to be done without Bear.
But the presence or absence of a book, would be of no import whatsoever.

Anything goes, Unfinished book on Consent Play | “1994” episode 6

~Lauren/LS Harteveld
An unexamined life is not worth living

* An About section, on this diary project, has been added to the bottom of this post.

since 2018 my official blog is: https://laurenharteveld.com/
This is also where I write my Lauren 1998 diaries.
Plus letters to my coach Sara.

publishing journal is a stand-alone project, written on my oldest blog, which has software I do not master (explaining the light grey or blue color of the links; I cannot (yet?) change this);
And it also does not have a “Subscribe” button, nor would I know how to install one.

But you can follow publishing journal on
Facebook
and
Twitter

This blogpost was about the publishing process of

A letter from a stranger  
diary 1994 – 1996
including book 2, Dear Nikki

There are currently (I may have missed a chapter, which will be added as we go)
13 chapters in book one “A Letter To A Stranger”, 1994-1995,
and 22 chapters in book 2 “Dear Nikki”.
So with my resolution of giving this project one hour a day, I should be able to share the entire 1994-1996 diary* with you before the end of January 2024.

And it is expected to be for sale March 2024.

The books I’ll be publishing next are:
1.Reboot – a hero’s journey. Diary 2017-2019
2.I M NOT CHANGING MY FUCKING SHOW

All my other diaries and erotica are readily available in my BOOK SHOP

* ABOUT THE DIARY 1994-1996

In summer 2019, I started keeping a fictionalized diary, as a 25 year old younger version of me. Events that happened in 2019 found their way into the diary, translated to their late 20th century reality.
And I also absolutely, intended to LIVE, like it was 1994!
But this is a hard thing to do, I feel I am still (2023) learning there…. but that is my endgame;
To LIVE like it’s the turn of the century.

It was/is an amazing project, and to this day I consider the diary entries it produced on my main blog, my best and certainly my most interesting work, because it combines performance art (living in the 20th century) with diary writing, leaving ample room for fiction.

In 2021, I harvested the diary posts I had so far, with the intention of creating a published diary out of it. Two actually, volume 1 and 2, but I decided to put them in one bind.
But I abandoned the project in spring 2022, losing complete touch with the project….

December 2023, I have picked up publishing this amazing work, of vintage erotica.

1994-me, also known as 2019 me; Throw your sex and love life brilliance onto me| publishing journal day 7

To explain why the chapter I just found,

Rocket Queen | “1994”: fanfic inspired story episode 5

from the 1994 retro diary*, made such a big impression that I chose the above title;
It is because I am in the exact same situation I was in, in 2019, when this Chapter of the retro diary was written.
Worse, really, because it is even longer ago my lover and I were dating.
We did keep in touch initially, but just like in 2019, by now it is clear he has not been able to show up for us.

I feel as powerless now, as I did in 2019.
But reading how, in 2019, I let 1994-me rise to the occasion documenting what we had had, giving words to it, in order to hold on to it in an internalized form, like a treasure that was now mine to keep, and that would be my starting point for a new relationship with a new man, or even for a renewed relationship with him;
Those discoveries, were promising.

I’m making it too wordy here. The 2019/1994 Chapter is an easy, cute, and insightful read.

The part I loved most, because I had forgotten it, was when I concluded that in trying to document the recipe of our amazing sex life, something we had been “sporting” for four -and-a-half years before he stopped seeing me and things ended up weird, just they are now another four years later-
that it (the great sex) could not be seen separately from the emotionally risky and unpredictable relationship we had developed!

“Our mysterious undefined relationship, had been a prerequisite in order to do the consent play I intended to write about,” the diary says.

And: “I need to start remembering.     
Start becoming.             
Start embodying that bold virgin that asked him for an encounter over coffee, at a café December 1989.”

Rocket Queen | “1994”: fanfic inspired story episode 5

Enjoy.

~Lauren/LS Harteveld
An unexamined life is not worth living

* An About section, on this diary project, has been added to the bottom of this post.

since 2018 my official blog is: https://laurenharteveld.com/
This is also where I write my Lauren 1998 diaries.
Plus letters to my coach Sara.

publishing journal is a stand-alone project, written on my oldest blog, which has software I do not master (explaining the light grey or blue color of the links; I cannot (yet?) change this);
And it also does not have a “Subscribe” button, nor would I know how to install one.

But you can follow publishing journal on
Facebook
and
Twitter

This blogpost was about the publishing process of

A letter from a stranger  
diary 1994 – 1996
including book 2, Dear Nikki

There are currently (I may have missed a chapter, which will be added as we go)
13 chapters in book one “A Letter To A Stranger”, 1994-1995,
and 22 chapters in book 2 “Dear Nikki”.
So with my resolution of giving this project one hour a day, I should be able to share the entire 1994-1996 diary* with you before the end of January 2024.

And it is expected to be for sale March 2024.

The books I’ll be publishing next are:
1.Reboot – a hero’s journey. Diary 2017-2019
2.I M NOT CHANGING MY FUCKING SHOW

All my other diaries and erotica are readily available in my BOOK SHOP

* ABOUT THE DIARY 1994-1996

In summer 2019, I started keeping a fictionalized diary, as a 25 year old younger version of me. Events that happened in 2019 found their way into the diary, translated to their late 20th century reality.
And I also absolutely, intended to LIVE, like it was 1994!
But this is a hard thing to do, I feel I am still (2023) learning there…. but that is my endgame;
To LIVE like it’s the turn of the century.

It was/is an amazing project, and to this day I consider the diary entries it produced on my main blog, my best and certainly my most interesting work, because it combines performance art (living in the 20th century) with diary writing, leaving ample room for fiction.

In 2021, I harvested the diary posts I had so far, with the intention of creating a published diary out of it. Two actually, volume 1 and 2, but I decided to put them in one bind.
But I abandoned the project in spring 2022, losing complete touch with the project….

December 2023, I have picked up publishing this amazing work, of vintage erotica.

Slash the painter (1994), a bar called Warhol, and perpetual desert analogies | publishing journal day 6

A new chapter! Revised and revisited.

Out ta get me | “1994”: fanfic inspired story episode 4

Written september 2019, but situated in 1994 in a city that has a bar named Warhol, the chapter is part of a retro, vintage, diary project*, which is still ongoing (we’re now late 1998) but I have picked up publishing the first two years, 1994-1996.
It is expected in March 2024.

Retro diary project means that events that were taking place current day, or as was the case here pre-pandemic four years ago, were translated to their (and mine) 20th century counterpart.
Emails became letters, Whatsapps became phone calls, and a lot more time for reflection in between the slow daily grind, was inserted.

All my posts written late 2019 hold a special place in my heart, because diary project and love troubles aside, it were these final pre-pandemic months, where we had no idea our lives were drastically going to change.

I often feel September 2019 – February 2020 were the last 6 months of an era, and I value everything I wrote then more than all my other work.
Maybe also because from a personal point of view, these months were absolutely dramatic.

If you click the link to the retro diary chapter(s), you may be able to find several other posts, letters to my coach Sara, but also other posts, about autism.
September 2019, was the month I really started coming to terms with the fact that I was probably autistic.

Due to events I will not get into here, I pulled myself from the waiting list for a diagnoses, February 2020. Right before the pandemic.
A decision I never regretted, because the pandemic brought my “condition” to the surface. It went from something that was understood by me on an intellectual level (see other posts on the main blog, written Aug-Oct 2019) to something that developed in a lived-through understanding of being different.

Yet ultimately it would take until November worst-year-of-my-life, 2022, for me to apply for help with presumed autism, again.
Which started this summer, and has been an incredibly positive experience.

But reading the diary I wrote 2019, translated to 1994, a time when my lover was already moving away from me;
Knowing, how that ended in December, and with the pandemic lurking…..
It is like watching a horror movie.

He would break up with me, and although things would work out later as well, the heaviness of the pandemic years would certainly take some of its glow.
The amazing times came under a dark shadow.

I am writing this in the final weeks of 2023, and again, my lover has moved out of my life, exactly in the year I am finding help to get a diagnoses.
2019 has repeated itself.
Although the reason he has been moving out, as far as I can reconstruct this, has nothing to do with me, it is tough that from my point of view, finding mental help has come at the cost of losing him;
Twice.

My professional life has evolved, and I am so happy with where I am right now, late 2023. I know myself better, know how I will live what I optimistically call the second half of my life;
And the psychologist that is helping me, is warm and loving, and highly respected in her field.
She has predicted I will make a full physical and mental recovery, to the woman I used to be.
Although I have not yet talked to her about how far back we can go there. The strength of 1994? ;)

But that late 2023, the same desert analogies would apply to describe my sexlife, as they did in September 2019/1994?
That stings.

Those are the moments you feel you’re diary writing your way in circles.
And God knows, what doom lies ahead in Feb/March next year, this time.

I am mentally preparing myself, for a long stay in the desert.

~Lauren/LS Harteveld
An unexamined life is not worth living

* An About section, on this diary project, has been added to the bottom of this post.

since 2018 my official blog is: https://laurenharteveld.com/
This is also where I write my Lauren 1998 diaries.
Plus letters to my coach Sara.

publishing journal is a stand-alone project, written on my oldest blog, which has software I do not master (explaining the light grey or blue color of the links; I cannot (yet?) change this);
And it also does not have a “Subscribe” button, nor would I know how to install one.

But you can follow publishing journal on
Facebook
and
Twitter

This blogpost was about the publishing process of

A letter from a stranger  
diary 1994 – 1996
including book 2, Dear Nikki

There are currently (I may have missed a chapter, which will be added as we go)
13 chapters in book one “A Letter To A Stranger”, 1994-1995,
and 22 chapters in book 2 “Dear Nikki”.
So with my resolution of giving this project one hour a day, I should be able to share the entire 1994-1996 diary* with you before the end of January 2024.

And it is expected to be for sale March 2024.

The books I’ll be publishing next are:
1.Reboot – a hero’s journey. Diary 2017-2019
2.I M NOT CHANGING MY FUCKING SHOW

All my other diaries and erotica are readily available in my BOOK SHOP

* ABOUT THE DIARY 1994-1996

In summer 2019, I started keeping a fictionalized diary, as a 25 year old younger version of me. Events that happened in 2019 found their way into the diary, translated to their late 20th century reality.
And I also absolutely, intended to LIVE, like it was 1994!
But this is a hard thing to do, I feel I am still (2023) learning there…. but that is my endgame;
To LIVE like it’s the turn of the century.

It was/is an amazing project, and to this day I consider the diary entries it produced on my main blog, my best and certainly my most interesting work, because it combines performance art (living in the 20th century) with diary writing, leaving ample room for fiction.

In 2021, I harvested the diary posts I had so far, with the intention of creating a published diary out of it. Two actually, volume 1 and 2, but I decided to put them in one bind.
But I abandoned the project in spring 2022, losing complete touch with the project….

December 2023, I have picked up publishing this amazing work, of vintage erotica.

Slash the painter (1994) & The Gutenberg Layout Massacre (2023) | publishing journal day 5

I edited and updated a new Chapter of the 1994 diary*:

Think about you | “1994”: fanfic inspired story episode 3

With Lauren’s meet cute with “Slash” the painter.
It is not erotic, but I’m guessing that after reading the two erotic longreads Chapter 1 “A Letter From A Stranger” and 2 “Mutuals“, you were probably satisfied anyway.

Okay, back to 2023;
About yesterday…. can we please forget?
Can we DELETE, that entire memory of the blogpost-bloodbath that resulted in me using the Classic Editor button on the new WordPress Gutenberg software this website is running on-
and the mess it made?

You can go check and see, this is yesterday’s post
https://www.lsharteveld.nl/2023/12/another-erotic-chapter-in-mint-condition-publishing-journal-day-4/
Opening with the back-up post I made, where you actually can read the adventure without getting lost.

I actually, you won’t believe it, even had to redo and save and invest another hour correcting the backup post!
Because I had copied the “bug” from this editor, into that one, so the post I had created there, also turned into one without any layout.
So I had to redo yesterday’s post, twice.

I sure learned my lesson not to ever use Classic Editor button on this website again.

The strangest thing was that before all of this happened, I had a really good feeling about it.
The draft post was showing up PRISTINE, in the “example” view!
Including a photo that was neatly stacked on the right of the text (not dominating above center, as it is now);
My links had an actual pink color, instead of blue or grey;
It was beautiful.

Until I hit publish and checked the post an hour after… and to my horror noticed that it all.fell.down.

So the good news is;
I now know where the Classic Layout button is.
Top left, under a blue + sign I mistakenly thought was an Start New Post button, you can find a keyboard sign emoticon that allows one block (not the entire post) to be designed with a classic toolbar.

The bad news is yesterday’s result has freaked me out so much, I am definitely never going to use it again.
And that I don’t think that I will ever understand how this software works, so that blue and grey links and pictures at the center of the blogpost, will just be the best I can do on this oldest LS Harteveld site.

See you tomorrow or Sunday 18 December, for Chapter 4 of the diary*.
You can follow this series on Facebook and Twitter

~Lauren/LS Harteveld
An unexamined life is not worth living

* An About section, on this diary project, has been added to the bottom of this post.

since 2018 my official blog is: https://laurenharteveld.com/
This is also where I write my Lauren 1998 diaries.
Plus letters to my coach Sara.

publishing journal is a stand-alone project, written on my oldest blog, which has software I do not master (explaining the light grey or blue color of the links; I cannot (yet?) change this);
And it also does not have a “Subscribe” button, nor would I know how to install one.

But you can follow publishing journal on
Facebook
and
Twitter

This blogpost was about the publishing process of

A letter from a stranger  
diary 1994 – 1996
including book 2, Dear Nikki

There are currently (I may have missed a chapter, which will be added as we go)
13 chapters in book one “A Letter To A Stranger”, 1994-1995,
and 22 chapters in book 2 “Dear Nikki”.
So with my resolution of giving this project one hour a day, I should be able to share the entire 1994-1996 diary* with you before the end of January 2024.

And it is expected to be for sale March 2024.

The books I’ll be publishing next are:
1.Reboot – a hero’s journey. Diary 2017-2019
2.I M NOT CHANGING MY FUCKING SHOW

All my other diaries and erotica are readily available in my BOOK SHOP

* ABOUT THE DIARY 1994-1996

In summer 2019, I started keeping a fictionalized diary, as a 25 year old younger version of me. Events that happened in 2019 found their way into the diary, translated to their late 20th century reality.
And I also absolutely, intended to LIVE, like it was 1994!
But this is a hard thing to do, I feel I am still (2023) learning there…. but that is my endgame;
To LIVE like it’s the turn of the century.

It was/is an amazing project, and to this day I consider the diary entries it produced on my main blog, my best and certainly my most interesting work, because it combines performance art (living in the 20th century) with diary writing, leaving ample room for fiction.

In 2021, I harvested the diary posts I had so far, with the intention of creating a published diary out of it. Two actually, volume 1 and 2, but I decided to put them in one bind.
But I abandoned the project in spring 2022, losing complete touch with the project….

December 2023, I have picked up publishing this amazing work, of vintage erotica.

Another erotic chapter in mint condition | publishing journal day 4

THIS POST WAS EATEN BY WORDPRESS GUTENBERG EDITOR! (losing all its layout) I manage to save and recreate a readable version on my main website: https://laurenharteveld.com/2023/12/16/d-inserted-from-other-blog/ Considering this blog was all about how I wrestled with WordPress Editor, leaving on a high thinking I had found a loop hole, the story has not finished, and I will be back to take on the Gutenberg dragon tomorrow! ~Lauren ps: Looking for the erotic diary entry? Click straight to it here -> Mutuals | “1994”: fanfic inspired erotica episode 2 Assuming that, unlike yours truly, you are not emotionally invested in the events surrounding the never-ending saga of trying to operate a website ran on WordPress’ Gutenberg software, and want to go to the chapter right away? Here it is! Second chapter to the 1994 vintage erotic diary* “A letter to a stranger” Mutuals | “1994”: fanfic inspired erotica episode 2 It was written in August 2019, and the blogpost (on my main blog) has been updated today, December 16, 2023. You can follow the coming together of this book*, chapter-by-chapter, on Facebook and Twitter

->My<- biggest news

Then what is definitely the biggest news of my day, although I confess this came as a bit of a surprise because the chapter is actually really good, and exciting, which is kind of the whole point of erotica but either way- conquering the design issues I have been having the past couple of days, ended up being even more exciting for me! Maybe you could already guess from the fact that the picture was inserted to the right of this text, instead of towering at top of the post; And that the links are no longer blue or light grey but hot pink! But I kind-of found the (or at least “an”!) Classic Editor option on this renewed website, which since had been incontrollable. At least by me. I know this is an exquisitely boring topic AND the Classic Editor option still comes with strange and unpredictable quirks – what I achieved today, will no doubt take time to reproduce tomorrow- but it’s a start! For context: Summer 2023 I invested in having this website updated because it was so far outdated it could no longer run on the update the webhost was making. I had to get help, and for a few hundred euros I could keep it up. A website with which I have had an ambiguous relationship with, for years. Because I don’t have a use for it since I switched to another blog in 2018. But I do still use the email address (although I have not checked it in over half a year) and this website address is the printed address in all my books. But the main problem with this website is that it really requires a tiny interest and effort in running it, and understanding how software updates work. An interest dearly lacking, on my part. My other websites are all smoothly hosted, and continuously (and quietly!) updated by WordPress. This website, lsharteveld.nl, is only running on (not hosted by) WordPress software, hence the effort required from the user to keep things running smoothly. Or, alternatively, wait until you have no other choice and only make emergency interventions when it threatens to fall out. So when I returned here after the work was done by the third party, I noticed that (of course!) they had changed the old-fashioned wordpress, and I was now stuck with Gutenberg here. The standard WordPress, since a couple of years. But on my WordPress-hosted sites Gutenberg can still largely be avoided, by Classic Editor options. It’s not easy, and you need to click away an array of Are you sures?  Any copied text comes out grey. And so on, and so forth. But with a little extra work I get every blogpost in the exact, identical Classical Editor frame I have used since 2010. Now this will forever be impossible on this website. Hell, I don’t even have a Copy Post option here, anywhere! I still think that is definitely a fault from the company that helped me this summer, and should have been there, but okay. Just to illustrate that many options, even the ones that should have been there (like  the copy post option), are not installed. But I did however, find my Classical Editor toolbar!!!! You know where the Classic Editor toolbar was hiding? Under a big, blue PLUS sign +, in the top left corner of the post. I thought the Plus sign meant create/ open a new post! So in my search for Classic Editor options, I did not even look there! So this means that from now on, I will be able to give my links a pink color. In block editor this was not possible. The whole paragraph turned that color, even if I selected just the link. And it means that I can now get the picture in on the right of the text. This was also not possible with my limited knowledge of Gutenberg’s block editor. I couldn’t get it right, and settled for having it towering on top of the blogpost. And, it also means, that once they remove the Classical Editor options from all my other websites, hosted by WordPress, I still will have no idea how Gutenberg’s blockeditor works!  See it when we get there. Emergency interventions only. See you tomorrow Sunday 17 December, for Chapter 3.
You can follow this series on Facebook and Twitter ~Lauren/LS Harteveld
An unexamined life is not worth living * An About section, on this diary project, has been added to the bottom of this post. since 2018 my official blog is: https://laurenharteveld.com/
This is also where I write my Lauren 1998 diaries.
Plus letters to my coach Sara. publishing journal is a stand-alone project, written on my oldest blog, which has software I do not master;
And it also does not have a “Subscribe” button, nor would I know how to install one. But you can follow publishing journal on
Facebook
and
Twitter This blogpost was about the publishing process of A letter from a stranger  
diary 1994 – 1996
including book 2, Dear Nikki There are currently (I may have missed a chapter, which will be added as we go)
13 chapters in book one “A Letter To A Stranger”, 1994-1995,
and 22 chapters in book 2 “Dear Nikki”.
So with my resolution of giving this project one hour a day, I should be able to share the entire 1994-1996 diary* with you before the end of January 2024. And it is expected to be for sale March 2024. The books I’ll be publishing next are:
1.Reboot – a hero’s journey. Diary 2017-2019
2.I M NOT CHANGING MY FUCKING SHOW All my other diaries and erotica are readily available in my BOOK SHOP

* ABOUT THE DIARY 1994-1996

In summer 2019, I started keeping a fictionalized diary, as a 25 year old younger version of me. Events that happened in 2019 found their way into the diary, translated to their late 20th century reality. And I also absolutely, intended to LIVE, like it was 1994! But this is a hard thing to do, I feel I am still (2023) learning there…. but that is my endgame; To LIVE like it’s the turn of the century.

It was/is an amazing project, and to this day I consider the diary entries it produced on my main blog, my best and certainly my most interesting work, because it combines performance art (living in the 20th century) with diary writing, leaving ample room for fiction. In 2021, I harvested the diary posts I had so far, with the intention of creating a published diary out of it. Two actually, volume 1 and 2, but I decided to put them in one bind. But I abandoned the project in spring 2022, losing complete touch with the project….

December 2023, I have picked up publishing this amazing work, of vintage erotica.

The first and probably most outstanding chapter (+ new book find) | publishing journal day 3

Finding the full manuscript of the diary* in tact yesterday, including two chapters which I know had been taken offline or had never been online, because of their sexual nature, made me almost euphoric.
Getting back to publishing the first two years of this diary*, had a flying start, so it was perhaps no surprise that after blogging about it, I extended my work on this project and read the first chapter of the diary.

The plan is that every day I will:
Review one chapter of the diary as it is currently displayed in the manuscript (a Word file);
Copy this (improved) text into the original blogpost, replacing the original text;
Share the chapter with you.

CHAPTER 1

CLICK HERE ->
A letter from a stranger | “1994”: fanfic inspired erotica episode 1
for chapter 1, A letter from a stranger

The first chapter stands out (in a neutral sense) because it is written in the third person, as opposed to the rest of the diary which will be written in the first person. There might be one more chapter where I use third person, I do not recall at this point.

But also, like many first chapters I have dealt with, some even of books and diaries I never completed and that can only be found on my hard drive because I never even blogged them-
but like many first chapters, this one clearly had a lot of work done on it.

Reading it yesterday, after I was done with my work on this project, took me half an hour, and I encountered zero mistakes.
So I am just going to copy paste the text from the Word manuscript into the original post, and share it with you.

The chapter takes place in July 1994 and introduces us to a 22 year old Lauren, who receives a letter with explosive fan fiction.
We also learn the unconventional arrangement she has with her lover Bear, with whom she has been having sex since she was 17 years old.

NEW FOOTER & NEW BOOKS

In this proces of copy-pasting the reviewed text of the Word file into the original blogpost, I discovered two more things.

The first was an outdated footer on the main laurenharteveld blog, where I wrote this chapter;
The second were new books.

NEW FOOTER

The 2019 blogpost of chapter 1, on the main laurenharteveld blog, came with a fully outdated bottom/ closer paragraph with social media accounts I no longer use;
Plus a reference to an umbrella term for a series of blogposts which I have not used in years and had completely forgotten about.
I cleaned it up, and for the upcoming chapters, the old text at the bottom of the chapters will be replaced with an updated 2023 footer.

NEW BOOKS!

There were FOUR upcoming titles outlined in this old footer, that I completely forgot about.
I know I even had a professional designing covers for them, but that one of the reasons I dropped publishing them was actually that these designs were no longer compatible to the way the self-publisher offered their cover-design software.
So at the time, I realized I either had to go back to the designer, or not use these covers. Maybe 2023-me, can come up with a more creative way to use that art work without going back.
But more importantly;
It means that after this diary project, we now have our new titles!!

Not four new titles though:
One title, Big Mistress, has actually been published, and I made a new cover for that.
And one title is a Dutch book. If I publish it, I will now be moving that under my real name.

Leaving TWO titles, which I will from now on be included at the bottom of this publishing journal, as being the ones we’ll do after the first volume(s) of the diary are done.

These two new titles are:
1.Reboot – a hero’s journey. Diary 2017-2019
2.I M NOT CHANGING MY FUCKING SHOW

See you tomorrow or Saturday 16 December, for Chapter 2.
You can follow this series on Facebook and Twitter

~Lauren/LS Harteveld
An unexamined life is not worth living

* An About section, on this diary project, has been added to the bottom of this post.

since 2018 my official blog is: https://laurenharteveld.com/
This is also where I write my Lauren 1998 diaries.
Plus letters to my coach Sara.

publishing journal is a stand-alone project, written on my oldest blog, which has software I do not master (explaining the light grey or blue color of the links; I cannot (yet?) change this);
And it also does not have a “Subscribe” button, nor would I know how to install one.

But you can follow publishing journal on
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and
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This blogpost was about the publishing process of

  • A letter from a stranger  
    diary 1994 – 1996
    including book 2, Dear Nikki

There are currently (I may have missed a chapter, which will be added as we go)
13 chapters in book one “A Letter To A Stranger”, 1994-1995,
and 22 chapters in book 2 “Dear Nikki”.
So with my resolution of giving this project one hour a day, I should be able to share the entire 1994-1996 diary* with you before the end of January 2024.

And it is expected to be for sale March 2024.

The books I’ll be publishing next are:
1.Reboot – a hero’s journey. Diary 2017-2019
2.I M NOT CHANGING MY FUCKING SHOW

All my other diaries and erotica are readily available in my BOOK SHOP

* ABOUT THE DIARY 1994-1996

In summer 2019, I started keeping a fictionalized diary, as a 25 year old younger version of me. Events that happened in 2019 found their way into the diary, translated to their late 20th century reality.
And I also absolutely, intended to LIVE, like it was 1994!
But this is a hard thing to do, I feel I am still (2023) learning there…. but that is my endgame;
To LIVE like it’s the turn of the century.

It was/is an amazing project, and to this day I consider the diary entries it produced on my main blog, my best and certainly my most interesting work, because it combines performance art (living in the 20th century) with diary writing, leaving ample room for fiction.

In 2021, I harvested the diary posts I had so far, with the intention of creating a published diary out of it. Two actually, volume 1 and 2, but I decided to put them in one bind.
But I abandoned the project in spring 2022, losing complete touch with the project….

December 2023, I have picked up publishing this amazing work, of vintage erotica.